Well, yesterday was 5 months waiting for our baby girl. I actually was so caught up (our friends were still in town staying with us & we were too busy having fun with them) that I didn’t even notice until Jeff & I went to bed that it was the 2nd. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing (I’ve been trying REALLY hard, mostly to no avail, to not let myself be consumed by adoption stuff) or sad that I didn’t notice, though I didn’t really realize it was even April already either. Whoops. Anyway… our friends are (sadly!) leaving today and we’re commemorating with Ethiopian food tonight. 🙂
I’m all over the place this month emotionally. I know we haven’t been waiting *that* long compared to others I know, but it’s still a year of waiting total so far (and waiting is teaching me that I have a LOT to learn & work on!). Our good friends just returned from passing court for their daughter in Ghana and a couple of my AWAA adoption buddies just passed court in ET for their kiddos. Looking at all of their pictures makes me so happy for them. I cried happy tears several times as I stared at photos and listened to/read stories. And yet… it makes me long for our daughter. I have no idea when we’ll see her face. I don’t know how old she is, or if she’s even definitely a she (yes, we are requesting a girl, but we would not say no to another son if we were asked – I love raising little men!). I check waiting child lists every single day. Part of me feels like we shouldn’t put ourselves on a waiting list for a little girl when so many older children are waiting–but I also don’t think we’ve seen OUR girl yet. I pray over all the kiddos on our agency’s Waiting Child List (WCL) often. I keep joking that watch us get our referral and then fall in love with an older child while we’re over there & have to bring them home too. If anyone has ever thought about adopting–there are SO many precious “older” (7+) healthy/minor special needs children just waiting for a family. Pray about it 😉
I’ve also been thinking about traveling. I cannot wait to go to Ethiopia. I feel like I’m already in love with the place and I haven’t ever been there. I want to learn everything about her culture, her people, and where she came from. I hope we’ll all be able to make trips there together as she grows up. I know it is going to be eye-opening, but I just feel like God has something up his sleeve that he’s going to teach us–something we could only learn by going.
We had sweet Aubrey at our house the past 5 days – she is 5 months old… and oh, I could get used to having a baby around again. I know the Lord’s timing is perfect, but I am so excited for our third child.
This blog post was shared in our agency’s FB group recently, and it was just what I needed to be reminded that waiting has a purpose… and so we wait, asking the Lord to mold & shape us during this time, and prepare us for that sweet moment when all the waiting becomes worth it.
“And therefore the Lord [earnestly] waits [expecting, looking, and longing] to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are all those who [earnestly] wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him [for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship]!” Isaiah 30:18 (Amplified)
5 months – tikil gomen for dinner!